why?

okay, blog !
omg omg !
i saw ELAINE on sat !
so cool.
jus so happen to be in town wit nessa, a last min thing.
thn we saw this cheer thing.
well,
yes, sa team was there.
we saw Ming Jiang and gang and a few others.
i saw Fahrun, thn i went to say hi.
thn i left.
th next thing i knw,
this girl stepped in front of me.
'cris stones for 1 sec, before SCREAMING AHHH !!!'
ELAINNNNEEE ! (:
omg i was so happy la,
i can like never ever see her,
both of us are forever trying to compromise schedules to meet up to study.
dang.
ahh !
anw,
Nessa, Cel, XingLu, Lynette and Jia Han camped at my place before we woke up at like 330am plus to go to NTU.
we were supposed to stay over,
but Lynette was like..
I DUN WANT.
so we ended up at my place.
and i was half dead frm the day before,
staying at Lynette's.
thn we hardly slept tht night too.

okay, we woke up, breakfast, and hailed a cab.
goodness,
the road is like EXTINCT in the morning can !
i walk like it was mine.
anw, we reach NTU and were fitted into huge shirts,
i was lucky enough to get XS which was still amazingly huge?
anyhow,
the toilet there is FREAKKKYY.
cockroaches and lizards swarm the place hahah.
let me briefly tell you abt the shittest CIP i've ever done.

nicely, brilliantly,
i was seperated from every single soul i recognised there.
so,
i was ALONE.
dang.
thn we were deployed.
on the bus was damn lonely la ):
anw,
my first duty,
i was ALONE,
not like the rest,
they had partners okay !
nvm tht.
i was like stranded near this flyover which i haven the slightest idea where in the world i was.
Singapore isn tht small aftr all hahaha.
anw, it was raining thn i had to like seek shelter under the flyover.
god, it was FILTHY.
i felt like Survivor.
it was wet, miserable and disgustingly filled with millipedes and ants and i dno wad la.
it was so cold okay !
nvm i ta hanned.
half my mind was like..
i want my bed,
i want to shower.
okay nvm, i looked like a plastic strawberry in tht red plastic poncho they gave us standing in the middle of nowhere.
thn drivers keep driving past,
wondering why i was there with tht dumb red flag.
okay.
and did i mention the vehicles tht passed me were GIMONGOUS?
and super close to me since i was literally alr on the road.
so smelly la the fumes.
had like vehicles 'farting' in my face all day.
the next best thing.
my pod died on me.
not because it didn have any battery but it jus..
wasn alive.
right.
so i had to ta han another solid 2.5 hours(after standing for 1 alr) standing there waving the damn flag.
i was so bored i like talked to myself and sing to myself.
gee, so embarrassing.
thn i saw the bus.
WHA.
i scream man so happy !
got on, was like heaven.
and i was too hungry to complain abt lunch too.
thn the next thing,
deployed agn to where.
sengkang.
ALONE agn.
so boring !
anw,
i ta hanned agn,
for another 3.5 hours before i saw the bus.
thn i was left at East Coast Park.
and i waited from 4 plus to 630 for the rest to come back.
so sian la.
and i heard abt Nessa's and Lynette's wonderful adventure in the bushes.
ahem.
shant mention wad it is here.
but hint- mother nature calls...
yeap.
ahh, all of us were PMSing aftr the whole damn thing.
i wanna go home and my bed.
NOW was like top priority for everyone.
XingLu was DYING to get home.
anw, everyone left.
i went for dinner with Jia Han before gg home.
heaven.
died instantly aftr showering.

so..
SUMMARY la hurr.
NTU bike rally, 8 hours plus of standing, with shitty food, reporting at 5am in the morning and miserable cold and hot weather.
NOT COOL.
all this for wad..
CIP.
gee.

okay, the next thing,
i NEED TO MUG FOR BLOCK TEST TWO SO DARN HARD !!!!!
AHHH !
and econs tuition EVERYDAY is not cool.
i need time to study on my own !
so worried okay.
and i see the past qns for math is uber difficult okay !
i saw one from LECTURE notes NOT REVISION notes okay.
not cool not cool !
ahh anw.
i gtg.
j2 lift stinks.
eew ):
gee, when was the last time i blogged.
hahahha.
anw, yes, the hols is finally here.
which means discipline is required.
i HAVE TO MUG SO DAM FRICKKIN BADLY.

sigh, last Friday was team SA stepping dwn ceremony.
i feel damn sad la.
i want that shirt.
so badly.
(i hate Mr Stanely Ong to the ends of the Earth)
even if you were to give it to me, its not as good a feeling as earning it.
its so cool la.
"Team SAJC".
shittz, damn cool please.

i miss playing competitive bdmt since j1.
i miss the muscle pulls, the crazy team mates and doubles !!
i miss doubles !
hahah.
now, bdmt's like leisure.
and even when i get to play every wed its like damn boring?
i got no mood to run at all.
its like i rather not play thn play?
either tht give me a damn good game to play please.
im so bored.
i miss bdmt soo.. much.
tht reminds me, my racket's still in the cupboard.
gee, my racket's rotting.
literally.
oh wells,
maybe i'll go back to qtss or join pris for trgn to play.
so fun la.
Pris is always damn funny.
dodging the shuttle especially when Shanny approaches it hahah.
oh wells.

apart from bdmt, i think my studies is like.. gone.
i have been slacking ALL TERM TWO.
i used to see mini tests in sec sch as like a test i have to actually study for.
now its like.
fail thn fail la.
can pon thn pon.
not As anw.
gee.
this is REALLY NOT GOOD.
i so need Kah Hwee to tell me off daily,
min by min.
sec by sec.
yes, sorry girl, im making you sound naggy.
BUT !
its in a good way yeh !
i love you ! (:
hahah.
oh wells.

i miss my sec sch times.
i miss Nessa.
i miss Nicole.
i miss Ash.
i miss my girls.
i miss 2c'04.
i miss Elaine, Eunica, my og27 and my PAE s26.
i miss bdmt.
i miss my sister.
i miss you.
i miss...alot of things :/
i seriously wonder how im going to do for BT 1.
omg.
feel so darn unprepared !
like NO TIME !
ahh.
math is driving me up the wall.

anw, i had a match yst.
hahah yes i lost duh.
but i swear if i was in sec sch i would've beaten her !
haha wadever.
i really miss training and really jus whacking the shuttle like no one's business.
i cant even drop now or smash right.
wad's this.
dun need to talk abt netting alr la haha.
anw,
i met Xiao Jing, Nicole, Chew, Amanda, Rachel and omg Cherie !
ahh speak of the devil la.
i jus recently went to Friendster her thn bump into her.
omg she's so pro now pls.
sports sch.
and she says that Cheryl's in NUS.
duh she's so smart la !

anw, it was really nice to see everyone.
and nice Victor and ANNOYING Shawn came down to support me.
well, technically Victor only cause Shawn claims he was looking for his true love LOL.
aftr the match i rushed down to sch.
at least it was at CCAB so i could at least sneak home to grab my shoes and leave.
oh and did i mention i intelligently left my bdmt shoes in sch?
so i had to stick wit my old pair hahah.
which was kinda dusty ahem.

whn i was in sch i was literally falling aslp pls.
and i didn do any work for chem remedial :/
see, hence the worry for unpreparedness.
must chiong man.
ahh but i cant stand the eagerness to finish revising.
rushing also no point but ahhh.
cant take it, really quite annoying.

aftr chem remedial i rushed to math tuition.
i cabbed there.
but before i cabbed i was drenched la.
dumb rain.
anw, so nice.
i board directly sharp at 5pm.
peak hour -.-
hahah but it was nice to have free dinner frm my tutor.
we ordered pizza.
tuition was as productive cause it was more consultation and i was pretty much...
DEAD.

anw, i was supposed to meet Victor whom i didn knw was waiting for me.
im so SORRY !
thnks for always encouraging me (:

sigh.
nowadays i fell damn sian la.
study study.
thn ure frickkin in my head for some stupid reason i dno why.
and sch's extra EXTRA sian.
hate sch i seriously do.

oh wells, a few more months cris.
cmon !
aftr A's im gonna rock the whole house down watch me.
that's if i dun feel too guilty of doing badly in my A's.
eh !
no no.
i WONT.
i'll do well.
i hope :/
sigh.
i really have damn bad karma this yr.
and i suddenly miss my Bestie):
oh okay.
i better go.
study cris.
STTUUUDDYY.
-dreads.
yawn.
dang.
sigh.
today got back chinese results.
i got a frickkin E.
damn yes it's a pass.
but its 45%.
im not re-taking cos its chinese and its quite pointless especially if im thinking of going overseas right.

today was a really bad day.
everyday is.
but today's really bad.
the rest did quite okay i guess.
anw,
i feel REALLY lonely today.
i do everyday.
today's like super alone la.
sigh.
even you aren there wth.
oh wells.
i really have no mood to talk abt anything today.

and gp was uh...alright.
paper 2 was harder.
yeap.

and i dno how sajc did for the As cause i didn go to witness it.
was too distraught with my results and running around.
and i needed to get back to Linda Tan dang.
anw,
i wonder if Clarence did get one of the top lol.
he was still counting the number of possible A's he'd get that Wed night.
oh, im damn proud of my seniors !
Wei Qi and Wei Ying both freakkiinngg got 4As.
pro la pls.
and Victor did not too bad either but he just think it isn good enough.
i think you guys did well ! (:

sadly i didn get to see any of my seniors except Clarence who conveniently walked past my home room and i saw him at the hall.
the hall was really packed and i just felt so down i just didn want to hang there.

oh and i saw Alwin too.
i wonder how he did.
i didn approach him cause he disappeared as i was abt to hahah.
and he came back in army outfit !
cool (:
i hope i can see myself in Wei Qi's shoes next year !
i bet Wei Ying will laugh at me if i told him how i did for Chinese.
hahah.
anw, thnks Hui Qin, Kah Hwee, NESSA, MUMMY, Victor and Jia Han for comforting me (:
love y'all (:

sigh.
anw,
1 down 4 papers left to go.
i've NEVER felt so unprepared in my life.
exams another 9 days away and i felt i haven touched a thing.
dang.
nvm cris,
its only BT 1 !
but i dun wanna get straight Us !
dammm !
i can i can !
i hope? :/
sigh.
i'd better stop the hoping and start doing my work.
i slept from 530 to 730 jus now with a few disturbances thanks to incoming smses.
anw, i shall go study i hope.
damn no mood today ):
caring is good. but not now it isn.
i have set rules for myself.

RULES.
1. stop talking to you as much.
2. delete all ure msges.
3. let nature take its place.

these 3 rules, i wonder if i can.
it's gonna be FRICKKIN DIFFICULT but..
i shall find out and try.
slowly but steadily i shall.
Nessa is right.
Nessa's always right (:
love you plenty girl.
i want to run from this now but i cannot when im in it.
why did i run from it to begin with.
you caught up with me and now im caught in this that i cant let go even when i stuggle.
jus kill me slowly.
i shouldn have ran.
look what i've done.
i feel so lonely now.
i feel in-existent.

these wounds,
when will they heal.
i dno.
This song is been stuck in my head for like 2 days now.
i replay it every 5 mins i swear hahah.
j.lo's Brave people.
i love her new album.
it's hot (:
anyway, Brave.

Brave- Jennifer Lopez
it's a new day, new day, and it's evident
You must have been heaven-sent
Sometimes we should be hesitant, but I'm not at all
Just feelin more confident
Just using my common sense
Just trust in it, I'm lovin it

I can't refuse an offer so benevolent
Can't assume he's gon' use me
And after he'll never call again
Don't be afraid, don't be afraid
This is your day, this is your day

[Chorus]
It's time to be brave
Say I'm not afraid, not anymore
I used to be cold, now the temperature's changed
It just ain't the same
I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid
Cause I've become brave
As the light of day straight into a cave
To show me the way, that I might be saved
Now I'm turning the page
Thanks to the power of love I can love
Because I am brave

I am brave, I am brave

I heard him say this thing moving too fast for him
It's a feelin' I was straddeling
Foolishly adamant, but It's all in his eyes
Really wish he would let me in
Cause the same way I'm scared of him
I'm scared of being hurt again

It's time to let go, let go of your heart
It's time for a brand new start
Never know, we might never part
Baby don't be afraid, don't be afraid
This is your day, this is your day

[Chorus]

I wouldn't take back anything that I've gone through (no)
I pray for strength for anything that I'm gonna do
Whether joy, or it's pain, I'm still okay (I, I'm still okay)
I'm a be alright cause I'm not afraid
No, I am brave (brave)

[Chorus]

I am brave
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen.

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy.

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
okay.
school sucks.
literally.
MSA1 is coming up so damn quickly.
sigh.
i look at the j1's and go.
gee, wish i was you.
and then i see them mugging,
i go like.
dun regret whn you go to j2 and have absolutely NO FRICKKIN' LIFE.
mugging is like URE LIFE.
gosh, its boring, mundane.
you name all the negative bits i reckon they'd fit.
oh wells,
i guess the ONLY good part abt mugging is ure results.
(tht's if you get good ones)
and can you sense that im comparing the bad and the good of mugging and implying tht mugging has only ONE, ONE good outcome.
hahah.
im sorry, i really am bored.
but i guess that ONE good outcome can land you in many good steads i suppose.
but gee !
it's dreadful !
aww.

anyhow,
there's cross country tmrw !
we're all marking attendance and going off.
we hope it works (:
oh wells.
we're going to celebrate Andrew's birthday !
ure 18 Andrew !
ure standing next to Quan Jun finally hahah.
OH OH.
so in advance...
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ANDREW ! (:

ahh.
i jus kinda finished reading and making a bit of sense out of my Carbonyl Compounds notes.
test on thurs.
still left Carboxylic Acids..
TSK.
(there was the whole of organic initially but nice Mr. Chong decided to cut it down, so be thankful Cris ! :p)
okay,
im tired by the fact i had 4 hours of chem today along with other periods and im sorry to say im j2 and still ponning my math lecture.
gee.
cris hasn been to ONE math lecture ever since school began !
TSK CRIS !
okay,
i should really stop talking to myself i guess.
ahem.
alrights ppl.
i am TIRED, though i napped awhile jus now heh.
bye !
dang.
school is damn tiring !
GEE.
i think im still suffering from the holiday jet-lag.
seriously, i slp any later than 1230 i am a DEAD WALKING ZOMBIE in sch.
the new principal has made tons of new rules.
1. 1 exam every month. i.e. MSA 1 & 2, BT 1 & 2, Prelims and Pre- and Post prelims which are yet to be comfirmed.
2. the side gate closes at 730am instead of 8am.
3. the side gate opens at 1pm instead of 1245pm.
4. every teacher must let us of 5 mins early so we start the lesson on time.
(no more 7 min rule)
5. we've got to great the person announcing and teachers (manners she says.)

anyway,
i nearly died today.
and i cant believe i have t go for chinese pls.
but we watched Secret starring Jay Chou, ss be jealous hahah but wth you watched it alr.
i fell aslp.
well, i did watch it before.
we didn finish it but oh wells wad the heck.

aftr tht me and Eugene rushed to PS to eat Pizza Hut.
okay, the rest had alr eaten and he didn want to eat.
so i was jus the only one eating hahah.
nvm,
and all of them decided to go back for Econs !
why ?!
okay, i went home.
and i jus died on the bed literally.
and can u tell i have no mood to blog.
yawn.

and i couldn meet PAE s26 for dinner,
mum wasn too keen on it.
oh wells.
i miss Jean and Jess whom i haven seen in forever.
damn annoying oh wells.
we shall try to meet up sometime i guess.
ahh, MSA 1 is coming up so shortly and i feel like i am still a j1.
seeing all the j1's around make me feel so envious.
dang.
and why are they not playing cards and mugging in the frickkin' library and anywhere in the sch.
yes darling j1's,
ure seniors prolly told you its tiring and hard in jc but pls dun mug can !
not in PAE !
WHA WHA.
i only rmb PAE was jus having FUN.
and uh.
more FUN.
lol.
PAE is a season to un-mug (if there is even such a word)
hahah oh wells.
and did i mention i met my old neighbour whom i haven seen in 6 yrs?
gosh, he's FRICKKIN tall since i last saw him.
like whoa.
oh wells.
i better go mug a bit.
MSA 1.
bites nails.
AHH !
MSA 1 MSA 1 !

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